2007

So this is a new year and we are all looking at what we did last year and what we can do to make this year better. have i done anything that i would have changed if i could? Did i wish i had done something? Is there anything i could have done to make myself look any better? Did i do anything different from 05, was 06 better?
All these questions, what to do, what to do. Regrets are what i don't have my year was great. i did a few shit and a few shit happened but i'm alive. I live and i learn and so should you. we spend all our lives thinking about what we did wrong and make our lives pass us by. worrying about what we said, shit you can't unsay it get the fuck over it. Things Cant be taken back, move on and live. Try to make it better dont live on the bad. We have only but one life to live, don't regret that life. dont be the one that says in the end ", if i had known."
I don't know much because i am young but for the little i know, i understand. I have life and i will lie it. We were given a choice in life so how dare me judge anyone, so how dare you judge me. I face that i can do it means something (it was an option), let me be. I let others be but whats the point of looking back on the bad if they dont make you feel any better. live your life for today.

Do you think everything happens for a reason?

People say everything happens for a reason. Well i say bullshit. Things happen because they can. some things happen because we let them. sadly i don't know how to make all the poblems go away but hey, what would I be without them.
We try to tell ourselves that things happen for a reason to make ourselves feel better. WAKE THE FUCK UP. You trip and fall because you didn't look where you were going. Your heart got broken because you were with an asshole. It was just your time to die...... how about if you were not on the corner having that loose conversation you would not have been shot?
take like for what it is. we get what we put out. You spit in the sky it falls in your face.

IF I COULD

I take all the pain from the world today but what would the world be without pain? If i could fix a smile on every face but what world would it be if there was no sadness or any anger? Every day we go about trying to make this world a better place. so busy doing that, we forget to do ourselves. We feel and this is for a reason.
what world would we live in if everything was o.k. what world would we live in if it was perfect. humans want what the can't have. We will have it all and still push on for more. more danger, more wants, more pain, more of what we don't even know about but we just want.
life is not complex we are. Humans are so difficult to understand. Humans don't know what they want. we want everything but what is everything but nothing.
It is not so hard to look inside ourselves but do we even know what to look for? wat makes us happy, and when we find it will it last. will we get sick of it after a few days, then move on to better things, like the things that makes our life full of drama, full of pain, full of unhappiness. Then we feel like we have a life because a lot is going on, because we now have something to talk about.
I wish i could make every person look on the inside, deep inside of their hearts. make them look for what it is that can make them whole and be happy for the rest of their lives.
The truth is I would not even if i could.

For my friend

We live and we learn. We stress or we cope. i am here if you need me I feel your pain. If you hurt we hurt. They say time heals everything but only if u let it. If u want to heal i will help you.We all have our own cross to carr but even jeasus needed help, i am here to help you. i am in your life for a reason and i need you too. Your test is now and you will not fail.
Just when we are happy the past comes back. we are can be slaves of our pasts or we can use it as lessons. Let us ot be forced to think that all humans are alike ask yourself first am i one like anyothe out there? Is that one person i call friend different from anyother person? based on your answer is theree one kind of people out there?
Things happen everyday to different people. You didnt ask for it to happen t you. i didnt ask for it to happen to me. People will always walk in and out of our livs but You will always have your pride and they can take all but that from you. They can take all but me from you.
I know you for who u are and i see you no different. I call u FRIEND

who is the right person?

At times we just want friends so we take anything that comes. we want so much to be with someone. Why do i feel so alone, we ask ourselves? Do we ever have the answers? I can't answer that for everyone but for me...i have no reason. people come and go like seasons and some like the leaves on the trees but as i once read only roots last. It i so hard for us because how do we really know the roots. Everything looks so real but it's not,. the leaves are so beautiful, green and al but they change color, then you start to see them for what they really are. Then they fall and make a mess, and you now have your life to clean up. it is a question a lot of us ask ourselves. A question we may never know the answer to.
I would say let's lock ourselves away from the would, what good would that do?
Life is full of shit, and a bunch of other things. We live everyday doing shit, making shit happen, meeting people who are assholes but in all that i am sure there is at least one good person. this then takes us back to where we started. who is the right person?

Just who are you?

She wants you to be a nurse. He wants you to work in a bank. He wants you to be an accountant. that girl over there says she knows what's good for you.
who knows what's good for you, that other person or you.
How much of them will you let down. Oh then you feel like shit because You are not what they wanted you to be.
Fuck that and fuck them. we al get our lives to live. dont let another person live yours. Do what you want to, make your own mistakes. just keep searching untill you find just who you are